ME NOW!

This is my therapy and Lord knows I need some therapy. Until the last week my life has been Great. I am a 20 yr old, senior at the Winston Salem State University. I have a beautiful three month old daughter who is the light of my life. I also had a wonderful girlfriend who supported me through every endeavor that I ventured in to. But now I dont know what to do with myself. My family ( my girlfriend and daughter) mean the world to me and with out them I feel empty. If you are wondering what has happened to them, the answer is nothing. The question is has what has happen to me. Some people come in your life to show you the way you need to go and I feel like they are what has helped me mature from a boy to a man. Whenever I needed support i could count on the support of my girlfirend or the beautiful smile of my baby. But now where does it come from. The last year I have geared myself to be a great father and future husband because when I was younger I didnt have my biological father in my life and it is nothing worse that feeling unwanted or unneeded. I watched my mom go through supporting two boys by herself and I promised myself that my wife and mother of my baby would never have to feel that kind of pain. Love in my opinion is a deep feeling of closeness and affection for one person or persons. Love is what I have lost in this ordeal, maybe in my quest to do the right thing I didnt do all the right things that people do who are in relationships. I didnt do the things like talk to my partner and tell her exactly what was going on. I thought I could handle the situation but apparently the problem was to much for me to handle. I ask myself Do I wish I would have handled things differently? I hope that this not to hard to believe but I LOVE YOU and YOU and MY DAUGHTER are the only things I want and need.